HONEY VANiTY

a bittersweet symphony

2009-11-13T01:31:16Z

I’ve kind of been putting off updating this thing. I hate being emo and writing nothing but crap. This was a hard week for me. My back still isn’t better. I need some painkillers, but I don’t think dr’s will give me any and I’m too broke to buy any. I have some money coming in but I have a lot of bills to pay. That and more is already owed.

Ryan missed two days of school this week. The first day I think he was just faking being sick. Today he actually did seem kind of run down though, and he had a temperature. But he’s better so he’s definitely going back tomorrow.

I’ve been fighting with Justin for reasons I don’t even understand. I’m not sure what’s going on there honestly. We just seem to be fighting a lot. And with me feeling as shitty as I’ve been I haven’t been the nicest or most loving person either. So it’s at least partly my fault. I just haven’t felt like talking much honestly. I feel like shit. I can’t play games at the moment because I can’t sit here for long periods of time without getting up and walking around due to my back, and playing games together is usually what we do.

I’ve even been neglecting making money, which isn’t like me at all. I really need to stop that.

I lost a close friend this week also. They aren’t dead, but I guess they may as well be to me. We won’t be speaking again any time soon, if ever. I took it harder than I probably should. There’s just very few people in this world who mean anything at all to me. I don’t take losing them lightly. Especially when they can’t even say goodbye.

I’m just thanking what ever god may be out there for saving Cetta from carbon monoxide.

Beyond the horizon of the place we lived when we were young
In a world of magnets and miracles
Our thoughts strayed constantly and without boundary
The ringing of the division bell had begun
Along the long road and on down to the causeway
Do they still LIVE there by the cut
There was a ragged band that followed in our footsteps
Running before time took our dreams away
Leaving the myriad small creatures trying to tie us to the ground
To a life consumed by slow decay
The grass was greener
The light was brighter
With friends surrounded
The nights of wonder
Looking beyond the embers of bridges glowing behind us
To a glimpse of how green it was on the other side
Steps taken forwards but sleepwalking back again
Dragged by the force of some inner tide
At a higher altitude with flag unfurled
We reached the dizzy heights of that dreamed up world

Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There’s a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
Though down this road we’ve been so many times
The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river
Forever and ever
pink floyd – high hopes

Originally published at GiRLY-GiRL.NET. You can comment here or there.

grrrrrr

2009-05-04T06:27:03Z

I fucking hate tooth aches. Nothing works. :(

And I still can't find a dentist to take my insurance.

New layout btw. I dunno if I like it.

these new aol whores are retarded

2009-03-28T03:13:00Z

popuIar science: who are you, ache?
Ache: wtf!
Ache: aimey
popuIar science: should I know you?
Ache: idk?
popuIar science: interesting.
expIosivo: Ache.
expIosivo: that's.
expIosivo: a
expIosivo: very small.
Ache: my old sn's were sakura/hinata/cherish
expIosivo: sn.
expIosivo: -glares, jealous.-
popuIar science: lovely.
popuIar science: are you friends
popuIar science: with that cuntfuck cetta?
Ache: i havent come on aol much the past 5 years or so
gods respite: i want
Ache: uhh cettas my best friend, who the fuck are you?
gods respite: The Game
gods respite: =[
gods respite: and
popuIar science: sux2bu.
gods respite: Hero
popuIar science: I'm Natasha.
Ache: stfu newb
Lee Choalen: you were on like 2wks ago, Aimey

*booted*

hate

2009-03-26T14:58:15Z

Ryan and I are seriously sick. We have pneumonia and aren't doing very well. Ryan's missed 2 weeks of school already.

I just emailed his father with the following.

" Your son has been sick for over 10 days. He has pneumonia. If you ever bothered to call the kid maybe you would have known. I hope you feel like a great father. Choosing MJ and someone else's child over your own son. Then never even calling him. I told you on WOW he was sick with an ear infection and you said "oh" and signed off. Really shows how much you care. Well yeah now it's a lot fucking worse than an ear infection.

You really were my best friend for a long time. I missed you and cared about you, and was happy when I got the chance to talk to you or you visited. But now I can honestly say I fucking despise you. You are the most selfish person I have ever known. And I hope Ryan learns that someday as well. I hope he sees on his own how much you care about him compared to how much you care about yourself and that lying cuntbag.

Fuck off and die. "

BTW, codeine Robitussin is seriously the worst tasting shit in the world.

Sorry Guys!

2009-03-10T07:56:20Z

It was never my attention to keep this drama going. I was involved less than most in the whole thing from the beginning. All I did was defend Daniel in a thread. The other day I felt it necessary to respond to her entry with that log Cetta posted because it obviously seemed pointed towards me. I am the only one of us with a child who plays World Of Warcraft. I probably would have ignored her post as well if it didn't say comments toward my son. Insulting a child because his mother was minimally involved in some online drama is pretty ridiculous in my opinion. It was posted in a log because her entry was locked and we are not live journal friends.

Anyway, I'm sorry that you all were bombarded with this drama all over your friends pages! And I do agree with your post Maria. Kamele's as well. And hi Katja! Thanks for commenting as well. Nice to see you again.

Friends Only

2009-02-26T11:48:17Z

Comment and I just might add you! Just be warned my journal is pretty boring. I bitch a lot and update about World Of Warcraft. I'm also a bad LJ friend who disappears for long periods of time. I also tend to go long periods of time without commenting.